okay! lets post for todae... hmm!! hahahha okay i didnt share what i get for my birthday !! cousin gave me a hoodie.. :) Jalal gave me a Always there bear!! hahahahahas well to him i am a person important to him.. hahahas okay lamOs my brother gave me a lava LAMP COOOOL!!! i didnt expect him to realli bought an expensive stuff i was just joking :S!!!

okay... lets talk about this few day i am sooo freaking stress with schools! seriously!.... gotten our mother tongue result i was freaking shock... :(( it wasnt wat i expected that totally ruin my moood seriously.... i have try to put in as much effort as much feeling in the papers and yet i couldnt make it its a c6!! gosh.. .:( wat a dissapointment...

well thursday was SS paper and.. phy/chem paper one... during this prelim exam.. i was having stomach pain because i felt sooo freaking nervous i dunt even know why!!... anxious feeling is everywhere damn it i have to get over this....
didnt complete ss sbq as i didnt have enough time to search through the answer was focusing soo much on essay i totally forget the time :((!! damn it... i bet i did poorly for ss...

well on thursday was skybirthday... but my mother gotta now the news about my mt o level result.. she was freaking dissapointed... nag is all she could do... i know i was wrong... i didnt give my best... lecture is all i got..... felt freaking.... upset of course.. :( i didnt have anithing to explain for my mistake.. so i just kept quiet all along.. on top of that it was sky birthday todae.... gosh.. i didnt want to make thing worse...

hmm.... hahas.. i have lost all my motivation once again.. it was sooo easy.. to knock me down.... :)) few words could realli hurts at times.... Hahahas.. well.... life :) watever...

went to meet bryan to celebrate sky birthday... we went to farm mart.. hahahaas have dinner there with few others it was fun.. HAHAHS.. bryan told me i felt soo nervous.. and from the look of my face i look more sick than he was...! lols!!.. when he was vommitting since morning?? hahahas.. well if he was in my shoes.... maybe he will know what i been through and seen :))

didnt want to make myself soo obvious that i was nort feeling good of myself.. so i start talking nonsense and crap HAHHAHAS!!!!! we ate and ate! :) aww.. than went to fish spa nice!!... there got soccer distract myself from the world singapore vs unkown and won before full time cool!! the fishes NICE!! hehehehes!!! :))

went home first as i got worried... about tomorrow maths paper 2.. my cat was the onli one waiting at the door aww poor him he sat at the table waiting for me with the cute face hahahas it sure brighten a quarter of my stormy day :) ... he stay up late with me instead of going to sleep even though the head wanted to go down he just close his eyes..

hahas lets just sae maths paper 2 was a killer paper.. :S!!!! felt sooo stress doing it... goodness sake!!! cant it be easier this time round let people all feel good that they have improve set sooo hard purposely arh!! grr.... another paper that ruin my mood was.. poa paper 1... at first i wanted to just go home.. as i couldnt do but hasyim stop us halfway... and told us to at least get 10.. i was feeling nort good and yet another failure will be another bullet =.=!! come on!.. hmm... there is a limit to wat a person can take... how long more can i keep up in my mind that everything gonna be alright.... :(

went to meet bryan after the paper.. i know i am gonna do badly on it.. i dont have to guess why.. but the question it seems i have seen them before.. haiizzz. memories why you keep failing on me.. times and again when i need you....

bryan me ziyang played basketball HAHahas its been soo long... dere were this group of kindergarten kids spreading around the basketball court.. hahahas! we couldnt play as a result i sat there watch them aww.... how fun their life is.. without ani worries... play is all in their mind but once they grow up facing this stressful world... i guess thing will took a change... life circle is realli interesting after all...

danial keep on disturbing the kids.. den one of them sat wat her name is natali or italy.. den she scream was like lols???? lamos but cute la and funni!!! :) den after a while they are gone we start playing hahahahas... join us a group of malay unknown bukit panjang government high but they are friendly we played mix was veri funni! :) it was fun hahahas..... of course fun irham you won all the game if nort you will still be emo!!

yeap!! :P but.. still there are worries to take care off.. hahahas... :) i know life knock me hard all the time.. i just have to keep put on the smiles.. because.. i believe.. some day.. thing will get better haha.. its just at times i just wnat to let everythin out and forget about it :)) okay goodnight readers take care!